My mind in this evil hour was not my own, but a master to have enslaved me. And so she drag me through the horrors of most vile imaginings, the nightmares of semi-lucid half-consciousness. The bed beneath me staggers like a drunken man. I cannot tell if I be hot or cold. And the dead tree gives no shelter, the cricket no relief. I am alone, yet beset by enemies. I am in darkness, yet the glare burns through my eyelids. Again and again do I say the name of my love, a love I have not seen in I know not how many years. And when it ends, it ends suddenly. It is like a howling noise you had not noticed until it stops. And I am in a desert. No one around, only the cloudless sky and the sea of dunes.
12/31/1969 4:00pm